Friday, February 19, 2010

If it's meant to be it will be &hearts

I am so distraught right now. So caught up in emotions that I'm losing my head. Wanting things to work out so badly that I'm a complete mess. Mascara stained pillow cases. What am I doing???? Have I forgotten the most important thing? The only thing that matters in this life???

My Redeemer...

He wants whats best for me.

If it's meant to be it will be.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 19:21
Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.

Romans 8:28
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Psalm 71:5
For You are my hope, O Lord GOD;
You are my trust from my youth.

Do I not know these verses to be true?? Of course. He truly has my best interest at heart. So why won't I trust him?? He knows me better than I know myself.

I'm done worrying. I'm done trying to control my life. It is in your hands. Do what you will....

  • Uganda
  • My Husband
  • Nursing
  • Finances
  • The building I call my "Church"
  • Insecurities

    There's distance in the air and I cannot make it leave
    i wave my arms' round about me and blow with all my might
    I cannot sense you close, though I know you're always here
    But the comfort of you near is what i long for

    When I can't feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same
    When I can't hear you, I know you still hear every word I pray
    And i want you more than i want to live another day
    And as I wait for you maybe I'm made more faithful

    All the folly of the past, though I know it is undone
    i still feel the guilty one, still trying to make it right
    So i whisper soft your name, let it roll around my tounge,
    knowing you're the only one who knows me
    You know me

    Show me how I should live this
    Show me where I should walk
    I count this world as loss to me
    You are all I want
    You are all I want

    Your words are my food and your breath my wine. You are everything to me.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

I heard this song today and it has just been on my heart.
Listen to the words...he knows us!
Audrey Assad:

As the dew falls on the blade
You have touched all this fragile frame.
and as a mother knows her baby’s face,
You have known me.

As the summer air within my chest,
I have breathed You deep down into my breast.
And as You know the hairs upon my head,
every thought, and every word I’ve said…

Saviour, You have known me as I am
Healer, You have known me was I was and as I will be
In the morning in the evening, You have known me
You have known me completely
You have known me.

And as the exhilaration of autumn’s bite,
You have brought these tired bones to brilliant life
And as the swallow knows, she knows the sky
this is how it is with You and I.

From the fall of my heart to the resurrection of my soul,
You’ve known me, God, You have known my ways
In my rising and my sitting down, You have seen me as I am.

As the lover knows His beloved’s heart;
all the shapes and curves of her, even in the dark,
You have formed me in my inward parts;
You have known me, You have known me

Your words are my food and your breath my wine. You are everything to me.

Friday, February 5, 2010

I heard this song on the extravagant grace blog...

If you take a moment to listen to the song and really listen to the words I hope it will touch you like it touched me today. Sometimes it's so easy to get caught up with life and forget the big picture. It doesn't matter what others think. I know my purpose here. I know my relationship with Jesus Christ is real. He sent his son for me. He loved me first so I could love in return. I will love.

Up Calvary’s mountain one dreadful morn
Walked Christ my Savior, weary and worn
Facing for sinners death on the cross
That He might save them from endless loss

Blessed Redeemer, precious Redeemer
Seems now I see Him on Calvary’s tree
Wounded and bleeding, for sinners pleading
Blind and unheeding, dying for me

“Father, forgive them,” my Savior prayed
Even while His lifeblood flowed fast away
Praying for sinners while in such woe
No one but Jesus ever loved so

Blessed Redeemer, precious Redeemer
Seems now I see Him on Calvary’s tree
Wounded and bleeding, for sinners pleading
Blind and unheeding, dying for me

Dying for me

Blessed Redeemer, precious Redeemer
Seems now I see Him on Calvary’s tree
Wounded and bleeding, for sinners pleading
Blind and unheeding, dying for me

Oh how I love Him, Savior and friend
How can my praises ever find end
Through years unnumbered on Heaven’s shore
My songs shall praise Him forevermore

Blessed Redeemer, precious Redeemer
Seems now I see Him on Calvary’s tree
Wounded and bleeding, for sinners pleading
Blind and unheeding, dying for me

Your words are my food and your breath my wine. You are everything to me.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

.::Religion VS Redemption::.

Religion says, If I obey God will love me.
If you stop drinking, smoking, doing drugs, having sex outside of marriage and start doing these other things...then I will love you.

Redemption says, God does love you he has loved you in the life, death, burial, and resurrection of Christ Jesus....while we were still sinners he died for us. Because God loved us first we can love him.

is like this...
A father saying to his daughter:

Sweet heart, here's a list of things you need to do for me. If you do them I will be your daddy and I will love you. And if you don't do them I won't love you and I won't be your daddy.

God looks at his children and says...I love you! Therefore love me and obey me! I am your daddy, my commands are good. I'm here to protect and defend you.

says, that the world is filled with two kinds of people....GOOD people and BAD people. How do you know the good people? Well, they are like me of course. The bad people..they're not like me.

Redemption teaches...there are two kinds of people...Repentant and unrepentant. Because all people are bad.

Romans 3:23
For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God

God looks down on the world and sees bad people and Jesus Christ.
Religious people don't get it...they look at the world and say or they're not good people.

Religious people are the ones who murdered Jesus Christ!

Jesus goes to the most jacked up, the sexually immoral, the prostitutes, the alcoholics, the thieves...and he says you're sinners! And they say totally can you help us? Can you come over to our house for dinner we're totally jacked up we need help!

Jesus goes and says the same thing to the religious people...and they say you have a demon in you, you're an evil doer! We're good guys they're bad guys! How can you hangout with the bad guys? You're not a good guy you're not like us! You broke our rules. We're going to kill you.

Thats religion.

Religious people care all bout your birth. Did ya grow up in a christian family? Did ya go to a christian school? Did ya go to awanas? Did ya? Did ya go to a christian college? Did ya win the Bible trivia bowl? Do ya know anything in king james? Do you know all the worship songs? Did ya sing "this little light of mine let it shine" as a kid? Did ya?

Being born into a christian family, having a mom and dad that love Jesus, not a problem if you love Jesus. If not its only cuts in the line to hell. It's really no benefit at all. Because religion cares about your birth.

Redemption cares about your new birth. That's what redemption is about. A guy comes to Jesus..What do I need to do? Jesus says you were born, you've been physically alive, but you're spiritually dead. You need to be born again. You need to be spiritually born again. God needs to be your father, church needs to be your family, men and women who love God need to be your brothers and sisters, you need a new life, you need a new start, you need to be born again, you need a new birth.

It's not did you come from a good family? It's have you been born again?

Religion tells you it's all about what you do! So do this, do this, do this! Don't do that, don't do that, don't do that! The problem is usually the rules aren't in the bible they are making them up as they go. Just because you own a Bible doesn't mean you get to keep writing it. Religious people love to make long lists of rules...check..check..check. They say it's about what you do and don't do.

Redemption says it's not about what you do, it's not about what you don't do, it's about what Jesus has done. That's what it's all about.

Religion says, do this, do this, do this. No, Jesus goes to the cross and says what? It's finished. Jesus is God. He lived the life we could never live. He died the death we should have died and on the cross he says it's finished. It's all done. There's nothing for you to do to be redeemed. I've done everything. Trust me.

Religion NEVER leads to joy. Or humility. Because religion makes a long list of rules that aren't in the Bible. If you obey them you are an arrogant self righteous jerk. You think you're better than everyone. If you're honest you realize you don't even play by your own rules and you're a total hypocrite. And then you get totally depressed. How many of you have lived this life? I'm not good enough, I've tried hard, I'm not perfect, maybe God doesn't love me, maybe there's no hope for me, I've tried religion and I just can't do it.


I don't drink, or smoke, or chew, or cuss, I'm a Godly person! No, you're filled with pride. That's what got Satan kicked out of heaven. Pride is not a virtue it's a vice.

God doesn't want us to be proud or depressed, desperate or hopeless. He wants us to have a humble joy. Religion only leads to pride. I did it! Dispare. I can't!

It NEVER leads to Jesus. It never leads to humility. I'm a sinner. I didn't save myself. I didn't redeem myself. I'm not the hero of my life.

Jesus is my hero. Jesus is my redeemer.
He leads to joy. God blesses me. God has good things for me. If I walk with him whether it's a difficult season or a blessed season God will give me Joy.

I paraphrased part of a redeeming ruth sermon. This is one of my favorite topics that Mark Driscoll discusses. I really get fired up about this too! I'll post the video in case you want to watch the whole thing.

Your words are my food and your breath my wine. You are everything to me.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010


To be acknowledged & understood. To be "perfectly" known.

Psalm 139.23
Search me, O God, and know my heart.

Do not awaken love!

Song of Songs

Promise me O women of Jerusalem not to awaken love until the time is right.

Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm. For love is as strong as death it's jealousy as enduring as the grave. Love flashes like fire the brightest kind of flame. Many waters cannot quench love nor can rivers drown it. If a man tried to buy love with all his wealth his offer would be utterly scorned.

  • Love is never bought. It's freely given. Not because it's cheap, but because it's priceless.

God's love is....
  • Personal
  • Passionate
  • Protective
  • Powerful
  • Possessive
  • Priceless
  • Persevering

    Take some time this week to recount the story of your relationship with God. How have you seen the seven attributes of love expressed toward you?

    Your words are my food and your breath my wine. You are everything to me.